Not to be dramatic or anything but as a lesbian what saved my life was realizing that attraction is supposed to feel good
If your attraction to men makes you viscerally uncomfortable, distressed, and feels like a fulfillment of a default obligation rather than something that produces good and exciting feelings, perhaps it isn’t attraction
The worst part is people always described hetero attraction to me as something that made them feel uncomfortable and ashamed. So when I got older I spent years mistaking extreme discomfort for attraction.